Kelly Renee Photography: March 2012

Sunday, March 25, 2012

Jasmine Star, The FIX, and The Tears

A few months ago I was lucky enough to stumble across a post from the fantabulous Jasmine Star mentioning something called The Fix. My first thought was a J* Seminar!? Wait, to good to be true.. she won't come to the Midwest, not anywhere near STL. ...it wasn't too good to be true. Jasmine Star & Crew were making a stop in Chicago!! I quickly bought a ticket and the waiting began. I felt like a kid waiting for Christmas, counting down the days until I would see Jasmine Star.. OMG!

Flash forward to 30 mins before the seminar. I wait in the car with my aunt and mom. I'm sitting in the backseat like a kid being dropped off on her first day of school. I glance at the growing line outside the building and suddenly I felt like I shouldn't be here. Look at all these girls. They have Mark II"s ... and my camera doesn't compare. "What am I doing here?"

But there was no more time for doubt, the doors open and I jump in line. I look around for a seat and ask, is this one open....no, taken was the response. This goes on for a bit. Ms. Doubt started to creep in again. I sigh and eventually find a seat semi close to the front. Jasmine comes in after a few mins and all is well. And I start to remember what I came here for; to learn how I can improve my business.
There came a point where the floor was open to questions. Here it is.. Jasmine, you and the mic.. oh and 200 people listening and watching. Needless to say I couldn't move to the mic for the first round of questioning. I promised myself, the next round I would make make myself. I did not drive over 5 hours in the dark on Monday night to NOT ask any questions.

I make my way up to the mic, in line I start to get nervous. Like really nervous. As soon as I step up to the mic, Jasmine steps away to grab a quick sip of water. I thought "OH NO". I think my confidence left when she stepped away. When she came back I blurted out, "Hey, omg, it's you" then audience laughter. Then I feel the tears starting to form in my eyes. I'm laughing/trying not to cry. (WHAT IS THIS? What is going on w/ me right now?-- i can't stop thinking). Then I turn to the girl behind me and ask if she'd like to go, more laughter and I take a step back....embarrassed! OK Jasmine is probably used to people being awed by her presence, but to tear up? Really? Was I the Chicago crier? OH NO!
I'm able to get my question out and feel relieved and still embarrassed. WOW! I can't believe that I A) actually got to meet J* and B) I cried. Well aside from the tears, I learned a lot, meet cool people, and had a great time!

Thank you again Jasmine Star for sharing your wisdom and inside secrets!!